I know what's bothering me. I don't want to desire to be a woman. I desperately don't want to do that to my kids, my mother... If it ever came down to complete depression I would succumb to the pressure. I guess this is why I am trying so hard to find the core pathology as to what makes me tick. I almost want to still be cured and have someone tell me I'm sick and need to get better. Truth is I don't think that's going to happen. So I need to deal with this head on but ever so delicately. I have less fear about the job than I do about my kids although the job transition would terrify me no end.
Thoughts and ideas (plus a little gender theory) from an intellectually curious transgender person. - “To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson