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LGBT pride

Today was the LGBT parade and I did not attend. I might have this year though but my kids were with me and by the time I dropped them off with their mom, it would have been too late to go.I never really felt part of that community though. I was never even sure that the transgendered belonged lumped in with the rest because we are not about orientation but about gender identity. So in that sense we are an odd pairing.

I guess the argument goes that we are all societal outcasts and we are strengthened by the support that the numbers bring. So for better or worse we are tied at the hip. Strange in a way as early pioneers like Virginia Prince were quite homophobic and went to great lengths to put distance between the gay community and the so called heterosexual crossdresser. Of course the lines have blurred considerably since then. But when I was young there was no internet and no guidance on anything.

Was I homophobic? well in as far I was raised Catholic and hated myself for wanting to dress up like a woman, I suppose I was. I have come a long way since then. Although interestingly you won't find me going to a gay bar anytime soon. In some sense I have even ignored my own trans community because I have not had superb experiences in it (at least not in meeting live folk). I have internet friends that I would dearly love to have closeby since we line up so well together.

I believe you need more than just being trans in common for a relationship to fluorish...


  1. Joanna -

    I understand well. The GLB's of GLBT focus on who they are attracted to, not how they present themselves. Of course, the "T" should have several categories, one being gender presentation, and another being internal gender identity. So us "T's" often get left out in the cold when sexual preference is factored out of the equation.

    As I see it, us T's pose a more existential challenge to the mainstream. With GLB's, it's simply sexual attraction - sexual identity is still intact. But with the T's, we challenge a basic tenet of identity - Sexual presentation and identity are part of the core of how us humans identify things. Most languages type objects by gender - In German, there are three words for "The" in the nominative class: der (masc), die (fem), and das (neut). So the existence of a man who either wants to present himself as a woman, or become a woman will make many of us very uneasy.

    Until us T's get comfortable in our own skin, how can we demand the same rights and respect that the GLB's have demanded and received?


  2. Oh boy do you have that right Marian! I totally agree with your analysis. We get lumped in but then some of us feel sheepish about participating in their events


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