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Talking to my kids

My children know I'm transgendered. All of this came out in part during the divorce process with their mother and in part during my relationship with my girlfriend who offered information a little faster than I might have wanted. They have never seen me dressed and have no desire to as per a conversation I had with them yesterday.

I wanted to broach the subject of being trans in order to get an idea of how they were feeling about the subject now that some time had passed since they found out. As it turns out they don't think about it very much. My daughter who is older has less of an issue than my son but both would have a lot of difficulty with the idea of their dad being a woman. I did not offer this up as something that would happen but in the flow of the conversation, they both expressed their discomfort around this presently remote possibility.

I myself don't know where I am going yet. The only thing I know is that I will continue the process of self discovery and experiment with living part time as much as possible in order to see how it all "fits". But I do consider that if it should come to a point where I feel I must transition that my children - who have already had to go through a divorce - will be further struck with a major blow.

But as long as I can live the way I am living now there should be no reason for concern I suppose. So they are OK with the concept its just that they don't want to experience it first hand and I won't be in a hurry to shove this in their faces either.

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