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the road to womanhood

It's been such a slow and steady progression towards attaining some kind of equilibrium that I have almost not felt the change except of course when I look back. Yesterday I was out and about and stopped at a cell phone booth at the mall to enquire about getting a cell for my son (he is starting high school in the fall).

There were a young man and young lady there. They both looked at me as I approached and she jumped into action (perhaps because she thought this middle aged woman would be more comfortable dealing with her). We talked about the types of phones and plans available and I casually mentioned that my daughter helped teach me to text on my cell. She then said "I taught my mom too". And then it really struck home with me how much I had moved from out and about crossdresser to increasingly a woman doing her everyday activities.

It's a subtle change as nothing physical has changed but I was in a mental zone at the time where I was not aware of how I was dressed or how I appeared to her as we were dealing with the business at hand. That's why that moment was so sweet and was received so unexpectedly. I was not really trying but I was a woman and perhaps always have been.

But this woman comes with decades of male training on how ti walk and talk and posture in this society. Joanna if she is to move forward will have to unlearn some of those things as she moves foresee in her life. I say 'some' because in the end we are all a blend of male and female and I would not want to eradicate some of the more positive male aspects I have acquired over my ,5 decades of life.

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