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what I've learnt so far in life..

Here are some of the things I've learnt over the course of my life; some of them the hard way:

- Be yourself. You need to know who you are in order to have others understand you and accept you and know what you stand for.

- Love yourself. If you can't manage this one you won't be able to love anyone else. There will be too much hurt and dysfunction governing your life and getting in the way of reaching out to others.

- Understand that life is full of ups and downs. This one is obvious to anyone who has suffered setbacks in their life and has come out on the other side. The aim is to keep your boat steady and ride the storms understanding that there are other storms down the line as well as sunnier times.

- Learn to find happiness in the small things. We all know money doesn't buy happiness or peace of mind and know that you can be happy with very little if your heart and brain are aligned towards being a good person.

- Don't let yourself be brainwashed. Have your analytical brain function working all times otherwise you'll be a patsy for every wacky cult and hair brained idea out there.

- Live one day at a time. Realize that life is short and that there are no guarantees. You can save for your future but then get hit by a bus tomorrow so live with balance an understanding of your mortality.

- Know that your creator has a plan for you. There is too much perfection and beauty in this world and nothing is random. God does not create junk so understand you are loved and add value to the universe. People are helped in some way by your existence and contribution to their lives.

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