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different world for today's young trans...

What a vast difference from when I grew up. We were literally in the dark ages. I first read the word transvestite in a 1970 copy of the encyclopedia Britannica and realized that the term applied to me. I was mortified and intrigued at the same time. It even described the lack of sexual performance unless dressed as women. What did a knieve little 8 year old know about these things. I never asked my parents or siblings but kept it to myself. In my room I would take my bath robe and pretend it was a dress. Sometimes I would innocently put up a hand drawing of prince charming on the back of my door and pretend to be his princess. It was very little girl and I probably was a little girl but I never let myself accept it because I knew by then that this behavior was taboo.

I played Indian princesses with another boy who was receptive. But it didn't last and I pushed myself to conform all the while knowing I was shy, sensitive and leaned towards the feminine. An artist, musician and a boy who physically resembled a girl.

Today kids are diagnosed early. Sometimes they are encouraged to be themselves and some even transition with the encouragement of their parents who in the end are forced to admit they have a daughter.

How times have changed for the better. So even as I know the violence and prejudice faced by trans people every day, there are those who push the envelope with knowledge, education and understanding. I for one am very glad even if I was not able to benefit.

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