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eventually my luck's gotta turn..

Over the last 16 years I have seen my father die of lung cancer, married the wrong person and divorced, had a stroke which almost killed me and had a 3 year relationship now fail. Thank God for my 2 kids and career. But I figure my run of unfortunate incidents should eventually come to an end.

In addition to all this my life long struggle with gender has always been there. The oldest of a large family plagued with problems while my younger siblings enjoy relatively easy lives. But this is the way the universe seems to work. I am not complaining mind you because if I compare myself with truly tragic stories I have fared pretty well but still you like to think that at some point you arrive at some sort of equilibrium. I would really like to think that it's possible.

I continue to ride the roller coaster of mild depression but I can feel that the magnitude of the ups and downs getting better slowly. I hope to continue going in the right direction and see where the river takes me.

I met E for tea last night. She got confused about our meeting place and ended up needing to hop back into the subway in order to have us meet up. It was a short overlap but I'm really glad we were able to do it.


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