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more of an extrovert as a woman

When I'm out and about as joanna I notice myself being more outgoing and sociable. I don't know if that's because I'm happier as joanna or I'm just trying extra hard to fit into the role and thus over compensating. Regardless, I seem to really relish my time out as a woman and my "passing" has taken a huge boost. I never understood what people meant when they said you have to know you're a woman inside in order to have a chance to fit in as a woman in society but now I understand it fully. I am Joanna and I feel comfortable in my own skin. That self realization radiates outwards and you are perceived as what you understand yourself to be. Powerful stuff that.

I had a great day yesterday as a result. Both meetups went great and we will keep in touch as always. M is getting older and needs to move towards assisted living. She is an amazing woman and has lived fully and intelligently all her life. E is only a few years older than myself and she's looking for work right now. She'll probably end up back in retail which is where I met her oin the first place. Both appreciate me in their lives and I appreciate them in return in mine.

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  1. Joanna -

    I understand the feeling about being more extroverted in the female role. It's likely a factor of "playing" a role that better fits the underlying personality.

    Although I am still very uncomfortable about using my voice while in the female role, I am more outgoing once I'm speaking - as if the ice has been broken, and I'm free to be truly me. So you feel the same way?

    Marian

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  2. I do indeed Marian. My voice has improved to the point where I always get mandamed on the phone. That is the hardest obstacle but a bit of practice takes care of it...

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    1. Joanna - I forgot whether you switch back and forth between male and female modes. If you switch, how hard is it for you to switch your vocal presentation?

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