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telecon with Helene...

Helene called me back today after receiving my message regarding my not pursuing the therapy. She wanted to understand my reasoning which I was only too happy to explain. After I had gone through the same series of points I outlined in my previous post, she understood and agreed with my logic. Interestingly near the end of our discussion, she described me as being gender variant which is a description I use in my blog title but never really took overly to heart. Perhaps it’s a good fit because I am not so disphoric that I need modify my body but just female enough for that side to require a substantial outlet. However, I don’t need to define myself to such a degree in order to be satisfied.

She reminded me about the lawyer Micheline Montreuil who lives as a woman but has never undergone surgery or even taken hormones. I suppose that would be more of a role model for a person like myself.

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  1. As a former married man and one who elected gender surgery over remaining a father I got to give you great props for a wonderful, brilliant and wise decision to forgo therapy, hormones or a new gender. I have great respect for you.
    I have found much regret in the gender changing world and my web site www.sexchangeregret.com gets 30,000 hits a year. Bravo to you good choice

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  2. Well it has not been easy to get there. However my GID is very much there and I am dealing with it the best way I can. Don't get me wrong, I am not ashamed to be trans and if crossdressing keeps me balanced, then that's what I'll do....

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  3. I did go to your site Walt and agree with much of what you say. However as a lifelong practicing catholic taking a "pray the gay away" approach to being transgender does not cure the disphoria we suffer. If I feel like I need to continue to live a part time life of sorts as a female I will. I have undergone therapy at a hospital and prayed as hard as I could for 40 years for this to go away but to date it has not. It has instead intensified...

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  4. I did go to your site Walt and agree with much of what you say. However as a lifelong practicing catholic taking a "pray the gay away" approach to being transgender does not cure the disphoria we suffer. If I feel like I need to continue to live a part time life of sorts as a female I will. I have undergone therapy at a hospital and prayed as hard as I could for 40 years for this to go away but to date it has not. It has instead intensified...

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  5. Thank you and it is unfortunate you suffer from gender depression a difficult disorder that requires treatment like all depression disorders and common with gender issues.
    Prayer is the way to find comfort in knowing you have a place to turn and that is not inward to self but outward to God. Although the catholic gilt can be problematic in helping resolve acting out feelings. It is true it it may not go away but then again it should not control your life either.

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  6. well if dressing up as a woman can be called controlling my life. If it gives me pleasure who cares how I dress I suppose. At this stage I will be happy to live my life the way I am living it. I was more distressed recently thinking about whether I should consider SRS and now that it's off the table, I am more relaxed about things. Thanks for your feedback...

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