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Its funny how things have changed. I used to buy women's clothes in male mode and then slowly migrated to buying them dressed as a woman as I gained confidence in my presentation. Now I am buying even my male clothing as a female and pretending to be my own wife while doing it.

Two nights ago, I bought a pair of shoes for my "husband" and had a great time doing it. I had not intended to go shoe shopping but the deal was just too good to pass up. So I took advantage of the situation and once again practiced my female communication skills. I will do that every so often just to validate my ability to pass and connect with another female. I have so far exceeded my expectations.

Last night I had my last IPL laser treatment on my lip area and chin. I will be virtually beardless and will require even less foundation than I currently use. I am very happy with the results from the previous treatment and looking forward to 3 weeks from now when the lasered hair finally drops away.

My existence in this netherworld between female and male can be confusing. Each side has a chance to pull harder for my attention on a daily basis. There is always the threat that the female will win but she never quite manages to grab hold of my entire essence. She tries hard though.

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  1. Joanna -

    Several questions:

    1. How much has laser cost you?
    2. Did you do face/chin/neck, or f/c/n + more?
    3. How many visits?

    Now, if the female essence takes over your life, you have an answer to many of your questions, agreed? It's the netherworld that's hard to live in....

    Marian

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  2. Marian laser cost me $900 for 7 sessions. It does not clear all the hair but gets rid of most of it. The five o'clock shadow disappears. It hurts like the devil. I decided to only do 5 of the 7 because of the pain and I am happy that the rest is covered with foundation. I did my whole beard area and the hardest part to clear are the lip and chin which hurt the most.

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