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I am going for therapy but not for gender confusion. Instead it will be to deal with my anger. One of the footnotes to my gender therapy four years ago was that I might have repressed anger issues possibly stemming from my childhood. Keeping things bottled up all those years certainly did'nt help and when my ex gf accused me of being a verbal abuser it was closer to confirming that there might be something there.

Upon meeting her again on sunday I promised to enter a treatment for verbal abuse as a prerequisite to any possible re opening of our relationship. Now with that possibility closed I still plan to follow up simply for my own benefit.

I have never thought of myself as an angry person but I need to investigate whether it merits investigation.

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  1. 'Cross dressing', 'being trans', 'a man with GID'...are not qualities that a woman seeks out in a mate.

    This should be obvious to you as evidenced in some of your recent posts. Attempting to ignore your GID while focusing on anger issues will only enrich your therapist and do nothing for you.

    You have my e-addy.

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  2. Joanna -

    I dealt with my anger issues separate from any GID issues I may have, simply because the causes were unrelated. (My mom came from an abusive household, and emotionally abused those around her.) However, if the path of my therapy had been different (which would likely have been with a female therapist, with different background and prejudices then the fellow I see), gender issues may have come out earlier.

    Luckily, the gender issues I have are relatively minor in the scope of things - and if they interfere with me having a relationship, I know it is purely those issues and not the anger issues raising their ugly heads again.

    With all that being said - going back to therapy is a good thing - especially, now that you want to try it for your own benefit and no one else's.

    Good Luck!!!!

    Marian

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  3. Well in fact I am doing it for me. I am not ignoring my GID either. I just see no point in going to a rah rah club for transitioning people which is what the program would be like. The therapist I am going to be seeing is covered by my insurance anyways. I will see how it goes...

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  4. And I don't count on getting her back either since it may be the wrong thing for both of us.

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