I spent my Sunday off yesterday doing some Christmas shopping and I ended up, quite by happenstance, meeting a nice lady called Leila while I was having a coffee. She is an immigrant from Lebanon who’s been in Canada for 21 years. We had a nice discussion and she ended up giving me her card as she and her husband run a business from their home selling a special type of imported cooking oil. She told me we should meet again and I agreed that we should. She seems like a very nice person.
This type of scenario is happening to me more often as my comfort level with my identity as a female increases. I am still the same person but I am in the process of joining the two halves of my personality into one unit. The only difference is the way I am dressed and the way I gesture as Joanna.
I still feel uncomfortable with the idea however of telling people I am trans and since I can pass as a female it becomes easier to lie. Certainly someone like Leila, who I would guess to be about 70, would not be as receptive to a trans person than someone in their 20’s. So I am conscious of my audience but I know that I need to eventually be more truthful in the future when I meet new people in order to have a more cohesive life.