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another blog I like

I found a new blog yesterday that really touched me. I think it’s because it’s written by a person who expresses herself in ways I can really relate to. Her name is Charlotte and she is struggling to find peace and balance while living with her gender disphoria. Like me she is divorced and has two children that she loves.

http://lottiesjournal.blogspot.ca/

Charlotte sounds like a lovely person and I very much like the way she writes. It’s written in a very self effacing prose that really shows who she is underneath.

She has (as most of us do) a coloured history of malfunctioning relationships as she tries to reconcile her sense of identity with an attempt to form bonds with females who cannot cope with people like us. It’s simultaneously sad, touching and hopeful in how she deals with daily survival and love of family while grappling with a misconnection between body and mind. I intend to follow Charlotte’s blog from now on and see how she forges ahead with finding a semblance of normalcy in her life.

I also find a parallel to my own life in how she is hoping to find an alternate solution to outright transition; love of her two daughters being paramount in her decision to refrain from doing so.
Nobody ever said life would be easy. It’s just a little bit harder when you start off at a disadvantage and having this condition confuses us for the longest time.

On another note I happened to be on YouTube last night and came upon a video of two transgender women talking about what they called “autogynephobia”! I could not help but laugh a little because it was clear that they had not done any homework at all. Here they were deriding Blanchard without even the remotest understanding of what he was theorizing about. I’m not defending the theory but there are aspects that have merit and the critique I heard was completely off the mark. We need to understand before we criticize.

Also while on YouTube I came upon Paul McCartney performing “Blackbird”. Not only is it a beautiful song but I think it fits transgender people well. To borrow a phrase from the song: “All your life you were only waiting for this moment to be free”

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  1. Problem with Blanchard's theory is that it applies equally to all women (trans or not) thus every single girl who wants to be a beauty queen, wears cosmetics and pretty clothes, or asks for plastic surgery would be suffering from an alleged 'mental disorder'.
    OTOH many feminists are in denial and loathing of their femininity, so #autogynophobia has become a prevalent condition in modern society.

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