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Good Friday...

Yesterday was Good Friday and I was weighing going to the mass. It's traditionally a long and solemn service. I am not a lapsed catholic but I don't follow church doctrine to the letter either. The message I ingested over my lifetime was that I needed to fix myself and God could never accept me as I was.

That was what I ingested, but I no longer think that way. Man interprets God and messes it up everytime. If you're gay, lesbian or transgender you are by your very nature a sinner and must recant and repent. But if God made me this way why he not find me lovable. Of course this is precisely the point and why I no longer let misguided religious fanatics get in the way of a relationship with God.

It took me years to forgive myself for being the way I am and the whole time God loved me just as I am. Man, woman, both who cares; we are all children of the same creator and we are equally loved. This simple message brings great healing and internal peace. Why didn't I realize this sooner is an unfortunate symptom of my upbringing coupled with my own limitations as a human being.

But we can change, grow and develop. This fact now brings me great comfort and joy as I embark on the journey that is the rest of my life.

I ended up meeting Sabrina at 3 pm from our originally scheduled 1 pm so finally I never got to the service. I must say I have not missed many of these services over my life so I am sure I am forgiven. She is a lovely girl and we spent a very worthwhile 2 hours together.

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  1. It has been, in part, my religious views and the belief that "God does not make mistakes" that has given me peace and acceptance as a dual gendered person.
    Pax
    Pat

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  2. Thank you pat...I could not agree more....

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  3. Hi, Joanne! You say that you "not a lapsed catholic but I don't follow church doctrine to the letter either." You go on to say "If you're gay, lesbian or transgender you are by your very nature a sinner and must recant and repent." I'm not sure which church or denomination this is from but it definitely isn't Catholic.

    Technically, we ALL have sinful natures and we are supposed to repent of our sins. We repent of our sins because we have sinful natures. And the church is filled with sinners.

    Why would you need to be forgiven missing out on Good Friday? It is not a Catholic obligation... Do you go to one of the "reformed" or "trad" churches? Just wondering...

    Robyn

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