The human brain is such a delicate and mysterious organ. We can talk ourselves in and out of things so easily and the fledgling confidence level of a young adolescent is tenuous at best.
I am trying to stay positive and bolster his confidence as much as I can. This is the only tool I have in my arsenal at the moment. If this were a physical injury it would be easier to handle and I would gladly take his struggle upon my own shoulders but I cannot. All I can do is be supportive and try and see him through this. I expect it may also be a long battle, although I am praying it’s not.
I draw a bit of a parallel to my life long struggle with gender issues. I am glad he does not have what I have and would have wanted to spare him even his anxiety.
Life unfortunately does not work the way we want and somehow each of us ends up with our own personal struggles to tend to.