There is good reason to resist physical change for the following reasons
- Despite not functioning normally as a male, I am heterosexual
- I don't despise my genitalia
- I currently pass relatively well as a woman
- There is too much risk involved in affecting my children adversely.
Living as a part time woman over the last year has been extremely pleasing. Perhaps I can extend that to full time living by retirement unless I decide that working as a consultant in my field is a viable option.
Physical transition is not off the table but it would require that my disphoria be so incapacitating that I must proceed accordingly. Since right now I don't foresee this ocurring I will continue along my aforementioned strategy.
I have come to terms with the science, the pseudo science and the religious road blocks are being rapidly removed. What is left is how I truly feel and how that feeling ties into a lucid and workable life plan. So the only person I seek permission from is myself and I am happy to finally begin to view things in this light.
I never dreamed I could ever get here but somehow I did. I made choices I might not have made all those years ago if I knew then what I know now but thank God for my beautiful children. They shall have first and foremost consideration above all.