First it was guilt about dressing then it was guilt about having orgasms and then it was guilt for overindulging once I had almost reached acceptance.
I have never truly been clear of it until quite recently and with its disappearence, things started to fall into place. If the guilt is not removed your entire thought process is filtered through it and you don't reason correctly.
When Pat sent me the link to the website lightinthecloset.org one of the things that stood out for me was that the site proposed strongly the elimination of guilt in order to move forward.
I have been in a guilt loop for the longest time and even when I thought I was free of it, I clearly was not. God cannot come and reach you in your guilt because it blocks all of the light trying to get in.
Its a step process and its like unraveling a package with too much scotch tape. You need to keep working away at it until every piece has been eliminated.
No question that it is the worst and most insidious form of mental cancer.