I have lived long enough to know that in life there is no certainty except for death of our physical body which in the end is only a vessel which contains our being. It appears that my vessel tends towards wanting more to be female than a male.
I am not trying to talk myself into anything but simply stating what I have experienced all my life.
There has been so much change already and my living part time is offering me the chance to see what life might be like full time. Truth be told I am happier when I am Joanna. But I need to make cetain that this is not just novelty talking. Of course I have now been living this way for almost a year and it feels liberating and right for me, I like it very much.
So without preconceived notions I will continue to test my feelings and challenge myself. By nature I am a very methodical person when it comes to big life decisions and that extra level of caution will prevent me from rash movements. So you can never say never but the timing is definitely not now.
I need to get my son through this critical period in his life and then we'll see. In 3 years or so I should be in a better positon to know and in the meantime the exploration will help me get to a solid decision either way.
I came out to a long time friend yesterday and he didn't bat an eye lash. He was undertanding and extremely interested in my story. We came away even closer friends than before. So far this is the way its gone with every family member and friend save for my religious sister.
I never would have imagined doing such a thing only 5 short years ago. Which is why I cannot say never with certainty regarding transition.