I am now in the final stages of demolishing and getting ready to lay a new foundation which will support the remainder of my life. I am also trying to keep those parts of me that I value and want to retain. It has not been easy to identify everything up to now but I am getting ever closer to segregating the pieces.
It has been an incredible almost year of discovery thus far and I am looking forward to more growth and self discovery as I peel away the layers of the life I built for myself over all of those years. It has brought me closer to a place of personal internal peace than ever before. It's what has been required but I was afraid to let happen.
Tonight my son called me to talk about girls and how he felt about one in particular in his class. The conversation shifted to other topics and at one point he asked me if I ever thought about having a sex change. Reflecting for a moment I said that although I had weighed it in my mind I had finally decided against it. He was very glad to hear it and I was glad to be able to reassure him. I did need to add however that some people need to do this and we need to respect this.
I am pleased to be able to talk to my son about anything these days and to know that he trusts me with his private thoughts.