That I cannot answer.
Like Marian who tries to balance an alternate persona in order to keep the male side somewhat unscathed, I am currently trying to figure out how to balance Joanna's existence and keep her in proportion.
The good thing is that thus far I have not lost control of my responsibilities when it comes to my job or parenting. I do spend a lot of time alone and so the frequency is not bothering me all that much. I won't allow it to because I spent too many years fretting and stressing.
I have come to a place of acceptance but don't yet know where the journey will take me going forward. I just want to tread lightly and evenly and hear myself breathing evenly and deeply as I go.