I have never truly lived alone and I am now doing it at 50 years of age.
It has been illuminating and has forced me to learn much about myself. In the stillness and quiet that being in our own private space brings the issues I've had to face have been handled more deftly than if I had not had this time to myself.
God has interesting ways to work in our lives.
I have also discovered that I am getting used to the liberty of choosing what I do, when and what I eat and how I come and go. This has been a definite plus for me.
Also the instinct to want to pair up is dissipating. The openness to do so is there still but the need for company based solely on loneliness is gone. I think that this is important because in order to know what kind of person is good for us we first need to know and love ourselves. This was certainly a missing element in my life.
I am now more receptive to what needs to happen rather than what I want to see happen. There is an important distinction to be made between those two things.
I keep going back to the term organic because this is how I want to live my life henceforth. I want to be malleable and open to surprises. I want life to open me up and present things and people to me and let things gestate on their own. In order to let God work in your life you need to be open to letting go of the reins.
I am more ready than ever to do just that.