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I'm getting used to these little thuds...

I don’t want to negate anything I said in the previous post with the exception of wanting to be a woman or aspiring to be a woman. That is a fallacy because I am a man and will always be one but I suffer from gender disphoria and that makes my brain think things that sometimes I shouldn’t.


Yes my mind wants me to go to certain places but it doesn’t mean it’s realistic or ultimately desireable.

Where I really want to get to that balance point where my gender variance is just a comfortable part of my expression and right now after decades of suppression I know I am overshooting. The headiness of days when I get to express my femme side makes me post things that are not or should not be in my sights as a target.

The reason I know this is true is because I fall back down to earth the next day and reality is there too.

Make no mistake in that I am still content with my management plan but because I am so buried inside my head these days I can become deluded and confused at times.

One step at a time I tell myself. Things will settle down.

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  1. Every day has its ups and downs. That is the nature of life. There are benefits of order and there is a comfort when things add up or are easily explained but there are also benefits to keeping balls in motion.
    Pat

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  2. No pun intended right pat??.....lol....

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  3. But you are right this is the nature of life and I know I am on the right track now with who I am....

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