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redefining gender disphoria

Anne Vitale gave a talk to the National Transgender Health Summit at the University of California at San Francisco in 2011 and in her slide presentation she included a revised definition of gender disphoria which really struck a major chord with me. She was giving the presentation to other psychologists specializing in gender:

“Instead of DYSPHORIA or that you are treating someone who is merely unhappy, think in terms of repairing the damage caused by living under the burden of unrelenting feelings of forced existential displacement from a gendered world openly alloted to others but explicitly denied your client. Someone who has been living --often for decades-- trying to live a normal life under the burden of chronic gender expression deprivation related anxiety. Some one who is now burdened even further by their well intentioned efforts to live a nomal life congruent to their assigned sex at birth”

That really nails what my problem is at the root. I will reemphasize the part that most hits home....

“trying to live a normal life under the burden of chronic gender expression deprivation related anxiety”

Yes that is exactly it. That is exactly what I have always suffered from and that repression has cost me dearly.

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  1. Uhuh. And what does the good doctor suggest you do about that?

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  2. That pretty much nails it for me.

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  3. I think that the quote makes sense. I see things more as having "gender expression deviation deprivation"

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  4. I repressed so much it cost me a lot in anxiety but I am now free to be myself and that is helping me tremendously...

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  5. I wonder if you are not kidding yourself, thinking that sitting on the fence, neither goose nor gander, is "helping me tremendously".

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  6. I may very well be doing just that but I do envy your having undergone this process at the proper time of your life. I was saddled with way too many obstacles and I still to this day care to see things bluntly and lucidly. I think I will need to accept the hybrid life and do the best I can. There's way too much upheaval involved here...,

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  7. I meant I don't care to see things lucidly sorry....

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  8. I am not going to feel comfortable doing this to my children and may end up one set of problems for another. Plus even if I can't use my genitalia properly with a woman I have no overwhelming desire to have them removed. I made a call when I was young and I need to respect the path I chose...

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  9. If you prefer to perceive things through a pink fog, then I suppose that is your choice. How can you rationally choose to proceed through live and make decisions based on an impaired vision.

    In truth I think that the mistake that you made in your youth, (if in fact a mistake was made...your call, not mine), was to ignore the reality of what your heart was telling you, choosing instead to be believe in those false gods pro-offered by an ignorant society.

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  10. On the other hand, transition does in fact involve a tremendous amount of effort, pain and upheaval. Changing sexes is one of the most difficult endeavors imaginable. To make matters worse there is no guarantee of success.

    This is why, if I were your therapist, I could only recommend transition as a last ditch, 'hail Mary', "option". In fact, I do not even consider it an option. It represents the very last thing that I would ever even consider unless it was required to save a life.

    There are thousands upon thousands of un-happy post operative "transsexuals" who made the wrong choice for the wrong reasons. Those are the unhappy facts and IMHO a direct result of all the happy horse-sh*t promulgated by the TG's. big dollar, profit oriented, media machine.

    I would strongly that you take another closer look at "So You Wanna Be A T-gurl", paying particular attention to Chapter 2.

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  11. Yes I did probably make a mistake then but now reality is before me and I will live with my pink fog. Society is full of ignorance and I swallowed what I was given without question. The risks now would be severe and I dont believe at this late stage of my life worth the risk. So I will manage the best way I can...

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  12. Yes I did probably make a mistake then but now reality is before me and I will live with my pink fog. Society is full of ignorance and I swallowed what I was given without question. The risks now would be severe and I dont believe at this late stage of my life worth the risk. So I will manage the best way I can...

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