Of course this was during the time that I actually believed that I was indeed a crossdresser. Dressing a few times a year did not really qualify.
I was instead looking for a way to cure my gender disphoria.
That feeling that somehow I needed to be female was never really too far from the surface. People who write these stop crossdressing pages are often fetishists who indulge in their fantasies and perhaps take countless pictures in a miriad of outfits.
They are sexually addicted to something and then reach an addiction level which eventually promots them to act and try to go cold turkey. Often these kids started in their mother's closet at or after the age of puberty.
My case was a little different and my disphoria has been with me from earliest memory. My crossdressing manifested itself very early and then went underground once it was discouraged. But after puberty and with signs of embarrassing eroticism, I did my very best to quash everything and bury it under the proverbial carpet.
Do I consider myself a paraphilic or a fetishist as per Ray Blanchard's theory? Absolutely not. Not only do his ideas not speak to my personal experience but I don't subscribe to the notion that toddlers can develop paraphilias. Anne Lawrence can believe what she likes.
But nonetheless, these websites disturb me because young gender disphorics can easily fall prey to the idea that they can cure their "vice" through suppression when nothing could be further from the truth. There is no known cure for gender disphoria and, speaking as someone who couldn't have tried any harder to eradicate mine, suppression is not a successful management tool as it will lead to depression.
Your failed attempts at suppressing something which, for you,is hard wired and natural will only lead to disappointment and frustration when you fail to defeat it.
It took me decades to understand this and my heart goes out to young kids who are still in search of who they are.