Fact is, I was trained as a scientist and I have a curious mind so that my own behavior and that of others is often analysed instead of just being taken at face value.
In other words, you will not find a precedent in my past that says: do this because it just feels right. I am much closer to being there now of course because I am faced with using cross dressing as a survival mechanism to curb my disphoria but that fact does nothing to quash my natural curiosity.
Nothing I have read to date on the topic of gender disphoria is compelling or convincing enough to give a clear understanding of what gender disphoria is.
What we have instead is plenty of conjecture based on observed behavior; but that is not science.
Harry Benjamin had enough sense not to wade into the waters of conjecture but simply catalogued behavior and put people into approximate categories and since 1966 we have barely taken a baby step in developing some proper science.
My conjecture is speculative and I make no claim to truth but I will call into question things that appear stupid and irrational.
So please forgive my heavy handedness, it's the way I'm wired.