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my most important challenge

It's been a tough battle with my son's anxiety.

Because of it,I will likely need to cancel next week's trip we had planned to the States. He is panicking at the idea of spending 3 nights away from home and nothing I say is convincing him that he will be fine.

So I am cutting my loses and calling the hotels today to cancel the reservations.

It's a shame too because I had been really looking forward to spending a few days away with my 2. But in his current state he will be miserable the whole time. Therefore the alternative will be to plan daily activities and spend the 2 weeks bumming around.

This is not the worst thing that could happen mind you. I need to just stay positive and help him get over this bump in the road and,if we can conquer this challenge, there will be plenty of other opportunities for trips in the future.

This is the most important challenge on my plate and I can't afford to fail. His future depends on it.

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  1. Joanne i am soooo sorry to hear this as it sounds like you were excited about the trip and spending time with your children. well it sounds like you will still get to spend time with them just not as you planned. good luck!

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    1. Thank you Diana we are monitoring him very closely and with some patience we should be able to conquer this....

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  2. I am wondering if you son's anxiety might not have some basis in your CD behavior. Even though he may have never met "Joanna", no doubt he is aware that 'something' is going on.

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  3. It is likely a factor although he has been interviewed by the doctor and there is much more there than meets the eye. It has been the onset of puberty combined with new school and loss of friends. It's a search for identity that we all go through. His mother coddled him tremendously which no doubt is also a factor and he is also timid and withdrawn much as I was then...

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  4. Hmmmm....yes. Growing up is hard to do.

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