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N and I were discussing over the weekend about my having a double life.

In wanting not to expose her to Joanna and in me wanting a fruitful experience, I have effectively been presenting myself as a woman and making acquaintances who don't know that there is a male me.

I never expected nor intended that all that practice with my voice was going to allow me to pass as a female to this extent and the inadvertent introductions have led me to new and unknown territory.

Truth be told: I really love it. I have never had so much pleasant and meaningful interaction with people as a woman.

N did bring up the issue of deceit and technically she is correct. However,I do tell the truth about myself with the exception of my birth gender.

I wonder if as I approach new levels of self acceptance, I might not be doing civilians as well as our transgender community more service if I just be open about my birth gender. In so doing I can perhaps do more outreach.

As things stand now, I never deny it if approached it's just that it almost never happens. Many may just see me and not bat an eyelash which is also a sign of how far we've come. The mere fact that they see me out and about and comfortable in my skin is its own kind of outreach.

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  1. If you do decide to do outreach please be careful. There's no telling what a few people who don't understand TG/TS might do if they feel they've been fooled. Some guys who might of been sexually attacked to the female you could turn violent. Some women might think you're using your female side to take sexual advantage of them. For people whose gender and sex are aligned, it's difficult if not impossible to imagine what it's like for those us us whose isn't aligned.

    Lindsay

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  2. I am a fan of honesty with a smile. The people who have met and befriended Joanna have reached a comfort level with you that should transcend how you are dressed.

    I think I favor the concept of you having two parallel lives. You can have your needed existance as Joanna with the friends and merchants you have met and those you will encounter in the future and you can continue your mandatory existance as the father, employee, etc. that you have had as your male self.

    I find it important to have an outlet for the femme component of my nature. My sense is that if Joanna can have a life then your male person can survive. If Joanna were shoved back into the closet your head may explode.

    Pat

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  3. I most certainly don't want to explode Pat but your analogy is spot on and need our outlet...

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