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my dinner with N

N and I had a lovely meal last night during which we discussed many things; one of them being this blog and how much I have written in the past about transition.

It's true that I have weighed the idea but now I have closed the door on it.

She is ok with the dressing and as long as it remains only dressing then we will be able to make a go of it as a couple.

She knows I am more than a crossdresser but that's all right by her and that kind of acceptance of who I am is a hard thing to come by. In fact when we met again four years ago after a 23 year hiatus, she had less trouble accepting me than I did.

Back then I told her I was a crossdresser because that's what I genuinely believed at the time.

But even knowing the truth that she knows now, she is still able to look at the whole person which is amazing to me.

I enclose a picture from early this morning...

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  1. I am really hopeful that you and N are able to continue to deepen your relationship. It seems that she understands that you are a complex, intelligent, loving and caring person and that to the extent possible you will try to keep the balls in the air. It is nice to be able to share a life with someone you admire, love and respect. If she can accept your dual gendered nature and you can live with some boundaries perhaps things will work out well.
    You have my best wishes.
    Pat

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  2. Pat thank you. She does understand very well that the way I am is not a choice and, in turn, I am doing my best to shield her from Joanna so that our time together is not affected by my need to express my dual nature. I am very fortunate that way and in fact what broke us up in the first place had nothing to do with this aspect. It was more related to the pressures of me having children and the demands of my ex spouse.

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  3. ....which boiled over into my verbal and temper issues. I am seeing someone for this now and its going very well.

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