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The depravity of it all....

Eric Brewer served between 2006 and 2009 as the mayor of East Cleveland. He was soundly defeated in his re-election bid when pictures of him in drag were made public.

Today he is back as the creator and owner of an online newspaper called the Cleveland Challenger.

I remember seeing those pictures then and feeling very bad for him because he was doing nothing intrinsically wrong. Those pictures were stolen from his computer and, in his defence of his re-election bid; Brewer even stated that his girlfriend had prompted him to dress up in lingerie. He was doing something so horrible that he needed to have a good story.

What I gleaned from those pictures however was that Brewer seemed to be an experienced crossdresser who was doing something in the privacy of his own home. It should have been no one’s business and it should not have reflected on his qualifications to do his job.

Brewer handled the scandal as gracefully as he could and owned up to the fact that it was indeed him in the photos.

What I found sad was that this was taken by many people to be linked with a kind of depravity on his part. Granted that the pictures were meant to be somewhat sexual but there was nothing explicit in the least about them. Brewer was simply dressed as a woman.

Big deal.

Dressing up in women’s clothes is no more or less a sign of a faulty character than any other activity but apparently for many people in this world this is not the case and, had Brewer been working for a private firm, this would not be grounds for dismissal.

We have no trouble with Ru Paul or Andrej Pejic and can even elect Stuart Rasmussen the mayor of small town in Colorado but we castigate people like Brewer.

What an odd world we live in.


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