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the two spirit model

I like more and more the idea of a transgender person being a combination of a male and a female spirit and, regardless of whether it is correct or not, I find it fits the way I view myself these days.

Why destroy your male side when you can opt instead to amplify the female that resides within you?

Why indeed.

I know this notion does not appeal to every person who is in any way gender variant but then we are all different with our own points of view and our own paths to follow.

Many native cultures have expressed this idea of a two spirited being and in some it has even been celebrated. They were called berdaches in North American native communities and were often shamans, artisans,crafts people or child rearers.

Needless to say we have a less favorable opinion of all this in our modern culture which is nevertheless changing ever so slowly.

Two halves of a whole is an interesting image and I will hold on to that image in absence of a better mental picture.


Steven Barrios, the grand dame of Montana’s Two Spirit Society, is among the American Indians leading an effort to erase homophobia on the reservation. “We’re reclaiming our place in the circle,” he says. “Until the two-spirit people are brought back into that circle, that circle is never going to be completely mended.” - BY ANNE MEDLEY

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  1. I also like the concept of having two spirits. I am a guy but I also have the need to present as a woman and to feel what a woman feels and to interact as a woman. I see my T nature as augmenting my personna as a whole. Along these lines I will note that I am a Gemini and have wondered whether I am both a male and female twin.
    Pat

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  2. could not agree more Pat thanks....

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  3. I accept that some people have two spirits, but I know that I don't. My dysphoria was only controlled when I accepted that my gender is female and that trying to maintain a male facade was just causing mental anguish. I know that gender is a spectrum but I know that I'm heavily skewed on the female side.

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  4. Thats a valid observation lindsay. I am not trying to say that everyone buys into this model and every person has their own unique blend of the male and the female. Some of us clearly identify as female and some of us transition because the dysphoria is too strong.

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