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giving yourself a break

I admit I’m a pretty fortunate person.

After going through several very difficult years I seem to have turned things around. I have a beautiful, intelligent and very understanding woman in my life that I love dearly and my two teens seem to be getting their life in order; my son’s battle with anxiety, after coming to a boiling point towards the early part of last year, appears to have turned into a much smaller problem. My daughter is doing well in school and is a very talented artist.

Over these last years, I’ve learnt some important lessons about giving myself a break and learning to let go of the things I cannot control. Not everything in life can be manipulated so that you spare that person pain or discomfort and sometimes that suffering is a prerequisite to learning and growing to make us into better human beings.

My own anxiety about who I was, shaped me into the person I am today and much reflective time was spent trying to understand where I fit into the world and how my personal challenges should be dealt with. Much of that struggle was internal and was not shared with anyone for fear of embarrassment and shame.

We all have our challenges in this life and the most important thing to remember is that you should not undertake them alone. You should seek help and realize that your own worst case scenarios need not be seen that way by others. We can often be our own worst enemies and by sharing your load and seeking help you can build bridges with others while helping yourself at the same time.

Perhaps it took me longer than it should have to learn these lessons but I am glad I finally did.

So remember that you are only as alone as you want to be and you should give yourself a break from time to time; this advice coming from someone for whom life was deadly serious all of the time from a very young age.

Who says you can’t teach an old dog new tricks.


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  1. I love your blog! So very Zen! Thank you! I relate quite a bit to everything you say. Thank you for writing as it makes me feel that much less alone with this condition.

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  2. You are certainly not alone Josh. Many of us around and it is my pleasure to write it!

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