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in your skin

Happy in your skin. Simple isn't it? Well yes and no.

In the end that is all that matters and after all the reflecting and thinking that is the ultimate objective is it not?

You are living day to day and you need to function and be relatively content with who you are. No life is not perfect and the many challenges will come our way but if you are armed with self awareness and love for who you are inside you can manage quite a lot.

Being happy in one's own skin can take a very long time and since we all carry baggage it can be at times daunting to get there but that is what is required of us if we are to be loving partners, parents and employees.

Dysphoric or not, we all need to find the core of what makes us tick. Whether it be through spiritual means, meditation or psychological treatments we need that reflective time for self examination and study.

Out of that work will come a whole human being.

Getting there opens the pores of the mind and heart and allows you to think more clearly than you ever thought possible and with that will come the answer for how to deal with the feelings.

It all starts with the reset button of letting go of excessive weights we have carried all our lives. Once we drop those we can breathe and really allow for that long hard look in the mirror.Certainly it should be a prerequisite before considering something like a transition.

The reflection looking back may be someone you barely recognize.

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