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lucid thoughts

Life is fleeting and so short.

I learnt only yesterday that my friend with cancer is back in the hospital and I plan to try and see him again next week if I am permitted to.

We sometimes think we have problems but we don't. Even as I have struggled with my gender issues over the years I have had a relatively stable and happy life. I had loving and thoughtful parents who cared for my siblings and I and we never were left wanting for much. Sure a family with six children doesn't go on vacation but when I look back at my childhood I feel I got all the essentials and more.

Mostly there was love.

My parents argued but they loved each other and were married until the time that cancer took my father's life at the tender age of 60.

As I said in a recent post it's all about perspective and I think my small struggles have brought me to a place I am more and more cherishing. I am slowly reaching a state of complete internal peace.

Money can come and go but that is priceless to me.

It gives you energy and balance and allows you the luxury of thinking more lucidly and prioritizing on what is really important.

Regardless of where you are with your gender or other life issues, you owe yourself the time to align your internal compass to find your way. Once you can feel that sense of joy begin to fill you the process of major life decisions can be undertaken with far more certainty.

You owe yourself nothing less.


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