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riding the rails

Public transit is a good barometer for me as to how well I am blending in.

I used to be petrified of taking the bus or the subway as Joanna for fear I would be read and harassed or just plain stared at in derision. So it took me quite some time to work up the courage to finally face my fears over this self imposed taboo and go for broke.

There were the times when my trepidation was confirmed and someone would notice me but then the nervousness and discomfort which were plastered on my face were blatantly noticeable. I was not helping myself at all.

It took me a while to learn to relax and the more I did so the less I was being noticed or read. Nothing in my presentation had changed save the most important element: my self confidence.

This simple litmus test confirmed that I was really getting somewhere with my public personna as Joanna.

Now I don't give taking the subway a second thought during the daylight hours now and it's given me more options for getting to places when driving is just not a good option. It's also more environmentally friendly and less costly.

A win win scenario.



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  1. I see taking the train while dressed as on the items on my T bucket list. While I do not think that there are any sure answers as to why some of us have our different degrees of GID I sometimes wonder if I had been a woman in a prior life. I have had many dreams of being dressed in the style of the 1930s and many of these dreams have me dressed while on a train.
    Once a year my wife and I take the Auto Train overnight from Virginia to Florida. I have told her that one of these days I want to do the trip while dressed.
    Pat

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  2. well don't wait too long Pat! go for it.

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