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the power of thought

How you think matters enormously. Let me explain.

Gender dysphoria, if left untreated, will worsen over time. It will fester like an open wound and the mounting pressure will eventually see it explode all over your life. Often it will cost you marriages, friendships and even familial ostracisation. It needs tending to sooner rather than later.

Many of us know too well these consequences first hand.

You need to find an answer that addresses the dysphoria in proportion to it's strength.

For some this will mean cross gender expression, for some perhaps full time living and for the most virulent cases genital reassignment surgery. Whatever your solution is you can ill afford to let things fester. Eventually it commands your attention.

Your first step is elimination of all shame and guilt over how you were made. You had nothing to do with creating this condition so liberate yourself from that burden.

But your thinking after that has enormous power.

What has helped me is to view Joanna as a woman. I have switched my thinking from "man in a dress" and it has helped me greatly to get the most out of my outings but also to give this other part of my personality a greater sense of power and energy. With this positive outlook I can blend her seamlessly into my life.

Whether I am a woman or not is completely irrelevant. It's what I believe that counts and belief has tremendous power.

Anne Lawrence believes she is a man while Kate Bornstein believes she is neither man nor woman. They have both transitioned but have entirely different viewpoints on who and what they are. Self perception is often unique and enormously powerful.

Whatever helps you get through is what counts; most especially in a nebulous and highly complex subject like this one. No one has answers for you so you must define yourself.

There are transitioned people out there who are deeply miserable because they don't think they pass as well as they expected or have faced greater challenges than they had hoped. Conversely there are others who are extremely happy with occasional cross gender expression.

The difference between them is self perception and belief in one self.

Find the formula that works for you and think that transition is not necessarily the cure all panacea you think it might be. You need to be on solid ground with your thought process and deeply understand yourself. Unfortunately this process can for many of us take many decades.

Your thoughts have power.




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  1. As usual, very well put and sage advice that any newly awakened TG person should take on board.

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