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our biggest challenge

The acceptance of family and friends is what every transgendered person deeply wishes for.

The catch of course is that most of us sold those people a bill of goods that did not align with our true identity. We hid because we tried to change or due to fear of rejection; there are a great many reasons.

But even if we did not ask to be born this way, I nevertheless feel strongly that lives not be torn apart due to our own selfishness. Our spouses and children who saw and witnessed the person we presented as before don't deserve a 180 degree about face and the sudden announcement that we're now a woman.

I am not judging anyone here but only stating a basic truth.

For the gender dysphoric the journey of self discovery and liberation is often a life saving endeavor and yet so often it involves the rupture and upheaval of other lives in the process. The older one is when they discover themselves, the more likely will be that this realignment will cause pain and suffering to others.

I know that some wait for the passing of a spouse or for the adulthood of their children but others somehow expect that they will keep their significant relationships wholly intact. The reality is that very few transgendered people will come away unscathed from this gut wrenching process.

I understand fully how hard it is to bear the burden of gender dysphoria and yet I strive to reflect daily on how my decisions surrounding its management will affect others around me. I shoot for a balance between my sanity and my obligations to those who depend on me.

If you have been able to undertake your journey towards becoming whole and have left little or no carnage in the process, I salute you; for you have managed to do something which is extraordinarily difficult and have come to tell the tale and maybe inspire others.

We are all different and yet all want the same thing: to love, be loved; all the while loving and respecting ourselves.

Sounds simple doesn't it?

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