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Everything I have collected in terms of research and personal experience over my lifetime tells me with virtually 100% certainty that gender variant people are created and not self made. When I say this I am not only including biological predisposition but also our socialization which leaves us with a kind of morbid curiosity towards emulating or becoming the other sex. We who are so afflicted are then dependant on a series of factors which juxtapose in their own unique formula to help decide our path forward; they include but are not limited to sexual orientation, religious beliefs, family and job concerns.

Why is this important?

Because that knowledge should help us to relax and realize that we are not the ones who are to blame for the feelings. Our behaviour (such as the desire for cross gender expression) is a symptom of a desire to become more closely acquainted with what we love and admire in the other sex. As hard as it is to explain even to ourselves, this is a basic truth.

For the vast majority of us, there is only one place to go and that end point must by necessity be self acceptance. Trying to suppress or curb will only lead to frustration and depression. I know I tried absolutely everything in order to eradicate my feelings and, despite what some militant "true" transsexuals will tell you, most of us are not born at puberty; we are in fact born well before. I can easily trace my gender feelings back to age 5 or 6.

Are some so called crossdressers born after puberty? Of course they are but their motivations and modus operandi are entirely different. It is like comparing apples and oranges.

Jack Molay over at Crossdreamers will be releasing the results of an important survey which will reflect what I am saying here. Many of you may have already taken part and, if you haven't done so already, I encourage you to participate.

The results will confirm what Harry Benjamin already knew way back in 1966; namely that gender dysohoria is a graded continuum.






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  1. Being true to yourself must mean just that, accept that you are this complex person with that mix of beliefs that along with your genetic imperative must be honoured.
    More than most people, we need to be reminded that comparing ourselves and trying to live up to some impossible model is self-defeating.
    Great post as always Joanna.

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    1. You hit the nail on the head Halle because that genetic imperative cannot be ignored. It is as hard wired as the color of your eyes and hair. When I finally owned up to that fact, I was able to let go and be myself even if that self need not transition to be happy. Gender is more than plumbing.

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  2. I very much respect your opinion Halle. Thank you for your feedback!

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  3. Good post. I agree with the concept and also with the premise that gender dysophoria is a graded continum. A generation ago gay people were hard at work trying to convince the non-gay world that they are hard wired or born with their proclivities. I am not sure that it not somewhat similar for those facing gender issues.
    Of course, there is the irony of being born with the proclivity to present as a woman while also being born with the body size to present as an NFL lineman. Cruel fate or irony?

    Pat

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  4. Ha ha maybe so pat but I sense you are secure enough to face that challenge and come out shining!

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