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After all the drama that has gone into my life regarding my desire to express myself through cross dressing it now feels extremely strange to not care and have people not care. For the longest time I thought I would be tar and feathered and subsequently disowned were I to be discovered. Well it turns out that has yet to transpire.

It's odd how the human brain works and in particular my own. I am a complicated person by nature; I think far too much and take myself too seriously. I have a history of being self concious and being afraid to be made to look foolish. Yet here I am going about my business as a part time woman in the world and I am being taught a great lesson about giving people the benefit of the doubt and being more trusting.

For the longest time I was obsessed with the idea of trying to revert myself to being normal. This has been abandoned in favour of the target of being balanced and happy which has done much to relieve the pressure to reform something that is hard wired.

The other day I was downtown and I was suddenly stopped by a young woman no older than 25. She said:

"I just wanted to say that I used to work at Place Montreal Trust and I've seen you there a few times. I think you're really pretty"

We had a brief exchange and I thanked her for being so nice but it wasn't the comment about my appearance that I appreciated nearly as much as the fact that I looked comfortable and happy enough to be deemed approachable.

It might just turn out that you can teach an old dog new tricks even if it that dog is a little more stubborn than most.



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  1. Things are improving from both sides of the equation. On the one hand folks like you and me are becoming more comfortable presenting ourselves to the civilian population while dressed as we choose. It is not that we do not care that we may be a man out dressed as a woman it is that we are assertively claiming that it is OK if that is what we choose to do. On the other side of the equation the civilian population is becoming more educated about us and more used to seeing us out and about and there is a growing recognition that we are there. To a certain extent those who do recognize you or me as a man dressed and presenting as a woman may admire not only our looks or attire but also our courage and courage is always an admirable trait.

    Pat

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  2. Right you are. I don't really care if her comment was meant for me as a woman or as a man. Either way its a win win. The latter case means more positive outreach!

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