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a chance encounter

I was at a Starbucks this past week and was just leaving when a woman poked me gently on the shoulder. She asked me if I knew who she was and after thinking about it for a second I recognized her. It was Helene Cote: the gender therapist I had seen a few times and have mentioned in this blog.

She was there with her young daughter but I asked if she could spare 5 minutes so we could have a brief chat since she asked me how I was faring. After collecting her beverages, she sat down with me for a short discussion. She told me that her daughter asked who the lady was, and her reply had been that I was a friend.

I quickly filled her in on what had been going on since we last spoke and about my intention to continue living my life as I have been. I told her I have no plans to transition and will deal with my gender dysphoria as I have been for the last few years. She nevertheless asked me if I would be willing to come to a group session to speak about how I am managing. Not all of her patients plan to transition fully or at all so perhaps it could be interesting to discuss my own approach to all of this.

After our brief encounter I bid farewell to her and her daughter and left thinking that it was nice to have run into her.

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  1. That does sound like really nice random moment!

    Would you consider taking her up on the offer to speak?

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  2. Yes I will seriously consider it Jen

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  3. I think it would be great of you to go speak to the group. You have a good balanced approach to this. I know I have appreciated being able to hear/read your thoughts on the matter! Go for it!

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  4. Joanna -

    Speaking to the group would be a good thing for two key reasons - (1) Others could learn from your experiences, and (2) You might find something of value from having talked with the group.

    Let us know what you end up doing....

    M

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