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mindful ageing

As I get older I get more bold and less hung up on what I am supposed to do. Instead I try and concentrate on what I need and want to do. This has been helping me tremendously in all areas of my life; most of all with my gender dysphoria. There has to be something positive about ageing right?

I wouldn’t trade the knowledge I have amassed over my lifetime for another shot at youth either; not if it meant trading in all of the life experiences I have been through. George Bernard Shaw may have been right when he said that youth was wasted on the young but obviously this is the way life was meant to be. Sometimes the only way to learn is through trial and error and there’s nothing like putting your hand on the stove a few times to learn how not to get burnt. I am a living example of how tenacious our preconceived notions, biases and misplaced religious dogma can be. Removing and cleansing all of that can be quite the task; especially if you are doggedly intent on not hearing a second or third opinion.

All I need now is for my physical health to keep going strong and, towards that end, I am going to try and eat better and exercise more. As I delve further into my fifth decade of life I also need to be more mindful that ageing gracefully requires all facets of brain, body and soul to be fed in equal measure.

In many ways life is about acceptance of where you are right now. Learning to live in the moment and being more mindful; I know this is the buzzword of the day. But the essence of the message is correct: try to live as if each day were your last and appreciate all that this life has to offer while leaving the things you can’t change to the universe and your maker.


  1. The late great sports caster and talk show host Art Rust Jr. signed off his nightly broadcasts in NY as follows:
    Yesterday is a cancelled check...tomorrow is just a promissory is the only time we have, so spend it wisely."
    Art Rust Jr. may not have originated the concept of cancelled checks and promissory notes but I will always remember him for using that phrase on his show.


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