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the uninformed

People don’t tell you what they really think. Most will tell you what you want to hear or what is politically correct but in a private setting or over an informal discussion they might tell you how they really feel about something.

This happens in almost every type of imaginable scenario and most certainly in the case of a transgendered person in the workplace. A small group will be very accepting, the majority will tolerate and another minority will vilify him or her.

This is why you need to be thick skinned and not worry about what others think because in the end it won’t matter to your daily life. There are small minded people everywhere and, whether due to lack of education or personal hurts or plain old meanness, they will not be swayed in their opinion. Only those who care about you and your needs and whose affections are returned by you need matter.

It’s probably more important to be respected than to be liked although having both would be ideal. Unfortunately there are far too many people to educate and so little time to live.

I know I don’t deal with this issue in my office because I am not out at work but I do sympathize greatly with those who do. But it’s like I told Helene Cote the other day during our chance meeting, when you get to a certain age you just don’t give a damn anymore.


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  1. As we age and as we survive various experiences we learn that tomorrow will always be another day and that things that caused worry today will seem less important tomorrow. What does not kill you makes you stronger.

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  2. one of the advantages of ageing...

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