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those elusive happy endings

I read recently about a U.K. based couple with two young children aged 5 and 3. The husband and wife have been married since 2006 and he has come out as transgendered. You already know where this is going don't you?

He now works full time as a woman named Cassie but at home he tries to be "normal" dad Dave for his wife and children. He feels this is a good compromise but his wife Pam is particularly unhappy with her husband's alter ego and the children are confused. Dave feels he has no choice or face depression and despondency.

The fact is that only one in three marriages survives one of the partners coming out as transgendered and, as much as I can relate to Dave/Cassie's situation, I can't help but find much sympathy for his family's feelings. Yes being transgendered isn't a choice but by the time many of us come to terms with who we are, much damage has been done to other people's lives. We desperately don't want this to happen but it just comes with the territory it seems.

Dave/Cassie is likely a transsexual who is desperately trying not to transition in order to keep the family together and I truly hope this happens. However, judging from the very normal reaction of his wife it doesn't inspire confidence. She says she married a man and not a woman and that she can't abide seeing him as Cassie.

I empathize with everyone involved but you sense that this might be a losing battle in the long run. This condition sometimes has a way of taking no prisoners.

Cassie at work

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  1. Thanks for a very intriguing post, Joanna. I hope for the best for Cassie and Pam, but I just don't see this ending well.

    I'm interested in the statistic you mentioned - only one in three marriages survives one of the partners coming out as transgendered. What's the source of that stat? Any more details about the background for the study that produced that stat?

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  2. It was mentioned in the article Linda Marie but I have seen similar numbers mentioned in other articles. My own marriage is part of that statistic.

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