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I never got a call back from Helene Cote. I had left her a message telling her that she could call me back to discuss the possibility that I could come speak to her group but that seems to have fallen by the wayside. Perhaps it’s just as well.

Aside from this blog I don’t deal with the transgendered world and it’s not because I don’t want to. I think it’s due to the difficulty inherent in finding someone who shares this condition who you also happen to click with. I have interest in meeting many of the people who read my blog and have commented on it as well as those whose blogs I have read but that is unlikely to happen.

Years ago I would try and arrange for meet ups but they would never work out or there was insufficient connection to go beyond an initial meeting. This is why I ended up turning to the cisgendered world and have Joanna establish some presence there. To date, I have not regretted that decision.

The other night I was out dressed and ended up in a store I used to frequent. The cashier instantly recognized me and struck up a brief conversation by mentioning I hadn’t been there in a while. It was a very genuine and pleasant exchange and reinforced once again why I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

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  1. Hi Joanna,
    It’s delightful that you’ve found the path that fits you and have the writing skills to inspire the rest of us to do the same. Two messages come through consistently: one size does not fit all and self-acceptance is the doorway to finding the best fit.
    There was a time when I was one of those people who backed out of meet ups. Fear was always reason, including fear of truly being who I am. Also my minimal self-esteem told me I was a freak, so any transperson I was going to meet would have to be also. This lack of self-respect is now in the past.
    I think it is healthy to make one’s way in the cisgendered world. That’s where most people are and where we have our place equally, heads held high. Transgenderism is part of our lives but not the whole. We can ensure our freedom to live fully.
    Thank you for being who you are.
    Carole Fraser

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  2. It is my distinct pleasure Carole. You had nothing to do with choosing to be this way but you can make the best of the person that you are and show everyone that we can be well adjusted and healthy people!......best, Joanna

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