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still a ways to go

The origin of gender dysphoria is still very much a mystery and no one to date has come up with a plausible scientific explanation. What we are left with instead is conjecture and theories based on behavioral patterns.

The work of Ray Blanchard has been a failure because by trying to formulate a theory using a very small patient sampling, ignoring female to male transsexuals and focusing on erotic imprinting (or what he terms AGP) he has managed to insult everyone involved plus come up gloriously short with his pseudo science

Erotic imprinting is a blind alley because it appears well after the patients have established a desire to be female (typically 5 to 10 years of age) and because as the sensual overtones of being transformed into a woman wane with increasing age, the desire to be female increases instead of decreasing. This is of course counter intuitive and Blanchard has no plausible explanation for this.

Androphilic transsexuals are not spared any embarassment either as for Blanchard they are men with an appetite for heterosexual males and he sees that as their motivation for surgery. Lawrence and Moser also did studies where some androphilics reported experiencing AGP fantasies prior to transition (albeit in condiderably smaller proportions than gynephilics) which only adds insult to injury.

But eroticism can be explained if one views it through the prism of sexual orientation. If gender dysphorics are split by sexual orientation it makes sense that their behavior would be different. Gynephilics being attracted to women would experience confusion between a desire to be female and a desire to be with a female whereas an androphilic would have no such conflict. We should remember that eroticism appears at puberty when the sexual orientation of the child has been set.

In the end the satisfaction rates among gynephilic and androphilic transsexuals are comparable but not every case has a happy result. I can point to examples such as Philip Porter as an androphilic transsexual who now lives as a gay man and to Thirdwaytrans as a gynephilic who has also reverted to living as a male.

If one also factors in female to male transsexualism we clearly see that the work of Blanchard has been a catastrophic disaster in terms of trying to represent itself as a scientific model.

As I have said here before many times: there is much more than meets the eye to this very complex subject.

Chris Pagani - fellow dysphoric and brilliant analyst

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