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Andreja Pejic has been a groundbreaker for most of her young life.

First she was an androgynous model who graced the runways sporting both male and female fashions and now she has transitioned rather publicly while announcing she was transgendered all along. All of this while remaining at the top of her game which shows how far we have come.

April Ashley and Caroline Cossey (Tula) both came before her and both attempted to stay as stealth as possible due to general public's wariness regarding this issue. Both suffered embarrassing public outings in the media but still managed to move past them and continue with their lives. Interestingly, Tula ended up marrying a former classmate of mine from University and I remember being more than a little shocked at the time upon hearing the news. I was far from acknowledging my own gender dysphoria back then.

Contrast the experiences of Ashley and Cossey to Andreja’s and you can see we have made progress.

We may be currently overdosing on transgender stories in the media but I suspect this will die down within the next few years. People will learn to accept that transgendered people are just a subset of society and move on with their lives. Eventually we will no longer be fodder for the tabloids.

There are some who may be resentful of the inclusiveness of the transgender umbrella but I think it’s a good thing. Real life is messy and not structured and, where we previously used terms like transsexual and transvestite to designate borders, we have seen that they sometimes don’t apply or blend into one another. People who never dreamt of transitioning suddenly do while others detransition such as Philip Porter or ThirdWayTrans. By the way, you should check out the latter's blog for the perspective of an early transitioner who went back to living as male at age 40. He questions the myth that "I am woman therefore I must transition" and does so very lucidly.

Again, it's your level of dysphoria that will dictate what you do.

If I’ve learnt anything over my lifetime it's not to trust appearances because they can be deceiving.


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  1. as more professionals who dress appropriate for their job come out we will become more socially acceptable and viewed as common everyday comings and goings. soon it becomes no big deal as we are "just a neighbor" or "just a relative" ect. like an immigrated culture of many generations ago we no longer become someone drawing new attention but we are connected to others that are connected to us and therefore no big deal. the objective is of course just melting into society.

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