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I am told that crossdressing is a great stress reliever so why didn't anyone tell me before?

There is a rumour going around that we gender dysphorics dress to relieve stress. Well I don't know about you but I didn't have much stress during my formative years.

Come to think of it, I don't think I have ever met anyone who started the practice as an adult for the sole purpose of relieving stress. What I can say is that by my late thirties, my dressing desires were becoming my primary source of stress.

The reason I went to therapy was so that they could repair me and make me normal. What ended up happening instead was that they helped me take my first tentative steps towards understanding that I suffered from dysphoria and my best solution was to accept myself as I am.

Do I enjoy my crossdressing today? Of course I do and it's part of who I am but it took from puberty to the age of 50 to get there. I don't think I've ever felt better about it.

However if by chance someone out there knows a recreational crossdresser tell them I want to meet them.

No I don't have these many brushes




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  1. Although I haven’t dressed that often, when on the rare occasion I get the chance, I feel content. Which doesn’t mean I can’t be content when in boy mode, it’s just another type of contentment. If I don’t dress it’s like looking though a window, when changed and I look up, the window is open and a fresh breeze touches me...
    I Joanna do have lots of brushes, but to-date I have no idea what they are all for!

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  2. I don't feel stressed when I'm not dressed as Davina, but I do feel happy, contented and pleased with myself when I can express myself as my female persona. Which seems to put me in exactly the same position as you, Joanna.

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  3. Well put Davina, that sums it up pretty well for me too.

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  4. The reason we dress is because our brains are wired that way. We call it dysphoria but I prefer to think of it as the way we are, I have never been happier. Thanks for your thoughtful responses!

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  5. Back in the day we had a phrase "If it feels good do it". I took me decades to realize that this applied to my dressing. What makes you feel good has a way of reducing stress.
    Pat

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  6. Pat my dressing is intrinsically tied to who I am and is not done for stress relief at all . Since I am a borderline transsexual it holds more significance and why it has progressed to such an advanced level.

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