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a clear ruse

Before I explain what this post is all about, I will provide some personal background.

I am now and always have been attracted sexually to women and have never been interested in men. My gender dysphoria has been present for as long as I can remember and prior to being married I had never had sex with a woman. I had come close but Catholic guilt would have eaten me alive but it was certainly not for lack of desire because just holding a young woman's hand that I fancied would give me an erection.

When I got married I was 32 years of age and I was already damaged goods. My dysphoria had fused itself to my sexual being since, by the age of puberty, I had been having spontaneous ejaculations while crossdressed. Before puberty my cross dressing had no sexual overtones to speak of.

The only way I was able to help conceive my children was by imagining myself as a woman which was something which greatly confused and perturbed me. Since I had not had sex with a woman before marriage, I didn't realize just how abnormal my sex life was going to be going forward.

Now fast forward to the work of Ray Blanchard and the following imaginary interview:

Joanna: "Dr. Blanchard what do you call this abnormality of mine?"

Blanchard: "That's easy Joanna, you have Autogynephilia"

Joanna: "What is that Dr Blanchard?"

Blanchard: "Well it's the propensity for a male to fall in love with his own image as a female"

Joanna: "And why and how does this happen Dr. Blanchard?"

Blanchard: "Well we don't know but that's the word I invented for what you have"

This is what I call a gotcha moment.

By now you have all seen that this is a ruse because by labelling something you are not explaining it. It therefore falls into the category of pseudoscience and if this blog achieves no other objective than to debunk the kind of work that tries to pass for science it will have been worth the effort.

One day someone will explain why this happened to me and to others like me but that will have to wait a little longer. Science is about explaining cause and effect and connecting the dots and anyone with even a hint of scientific curiosity can see we are a long way off from some sort of credible explanation.

The reason this would be good is that it would once and for all put a nail in the coffin on the suggestion that being transgender is a lifestyle choice, self induced hypnosis or a form of mental delusion. It is very much a real thing and like all things in this life, there is a plausible explanation waiting for someone to discover it.

Thankfully, not many people still pay attention to Blanchard's work but it represents a cautionary tale about the dangers of letting people who have never experienced dysphoria first hand and who clearly have an agenda gaining traction with the psychiatric community.


Comments

  1. Hello Joanna.
    In regard to psychiatry it all seems to be made up from rather hit and miss arbitrary conclusions giving no real value to the client.

    The characteristics of people are developed in the womb and all are perfectly natural occurrences and each person is an individual with their own identity. Some are left handed some right handed, some are heterosexual and others are not.

    Nature is not a production line based upon specific designs.

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  2. Yes this is much the same conclusion I have come to as well. Nature is messy and imperfect and produces hybrids and variations in all areas. Gender identity is just one of those areas. Unfortuntely there are those who would use these variations to produce toxic theories which serve only to reach conclusions that serve an agenda. Kirt Freund and Blanchard should have stuck with neasuring penile reactions of child molesters instead of targeting transgender people. Thank you for your comment!

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