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Caitlyn Jenner is not the role model I had hoped for to help educate the public on gender dysphoria and perhaps its just as well. Maybe its better that people see we are not all the same or believe in the same causes. Maybe the best we can hope for is a combination of sources to make things better.

I must admit that I can be a bit of a misanthrope. N even acusses me of being an elitist snob and maybe she is right. But its only because I continue to see the cruelty and stupidity around me constantly. I only need to get online to see it. At the same time there are truly amazing and wonderful people in this world that have me feeling more hopeful about our future.

If this blog has tried to do anything is help shed some light on some of the misconceptions among trans people themselves about what their condition is and how it can be treated. Not all roads must necessarily lead to transition and there are options out there for all of us.

We have all dealt with this since earliest memory and it's never going to go away. I as much as anyone know this in my bones therefore it must be dealt with head on and without fear. The shrinking violet approach is also a non-starter. Apologizing to our families for being transgender is like apologizing for needing to breathe or eat. On the other hand I read about too many people plowing through with a transition and damn the consequences. There is certainly a middle ground.

I still don't really see being transgender as a blessing but rather as something for better or worse that I am. Its like having brown hair versus blonde. The problem is that we have let society, misguided religious fervour and lack of education turn the way we are into a bigger issue than it need be.

We are different and what of it. It's that simple.

I have spent my entire life observing the behaviour of people and the older I become the more I see the inherent irrationality that plagues us. Many don't even truly analyze their own belief system and cling to concepts or ideas they were taught as children. Their prejudices remain intact long past the date they need to because they don't question them sufficiently.

By this age I have decided not be dictated to by the fickle illogic that often passes for intelligence and now use an internal compass to guide me.

Thus far anyway, it has served me quite well.



  1. "Apologizing to our families for being transgender is like apologizing for needing to breathe or eat."

    Love this analogy!

  2. While Caitlyn Jenner may not be the perfect role model I do feel that she has done much more good than not. She is well respected and well regarded. We have to learn that we cannot let the perfect be the enemy of the good.
    I would like to see some public acceptance of CDs, part timers, and others who cross the gender binary. The media will focus on the TS and historically it seemed as if all aspects of the 'surgical' change were fair game. I am pleased to see that in many instances that mass media have been chastised about their desire to focus on surgery and to at least see some of the focus relate to relationships and the fit of the individual into society.
    I do not think that there will ever or can ever be a perfect role model for all of those dealing with gender issues. As such we need to recognize the benefit of small steps.


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