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Fixing society

There seems to be more than enough hate to go around.

Another transgender woman named Ashley Hallstrom walked into traffic because she despaired about how she was being treated by society. The unfortunate truth is that there is plenty of reason to despair. She grew up in Utah so you can imagine that it was not an easy childhood.

Quite a number of posts ago, I featured the toxic website called GenderTrender written by an extremely irritated (and equally irritating) militant feminist who seems to post incessantly on the transgender scourge overtaking women’s rights. It’s a hodgepodge that mixes bizarre commentary on trans kids with (you guessed it) adulation for the work of Blanchard and Bailey from which the site mostly bottom feeds. While the 99% of the male population commits all of the heinous acts against women, this blogger chooses to pick on the 1% who thinks they were born on the wrong team. Either this person is dim or I missed a memo.

Hatred trumps logic every time.

I have also featured the right wing religious zealots here and how they demean people who are just trying to live their lives with an imperfect situation handed to them.

What do both the aforementioned have in common? Neither has the slightest clue of what it’s like to experience gender dysphoria first hand. Yet they feel they have the authority to weigh in.

Perhaps my debunking work does have some use after all.

But I’ve lived long enough to know this basic truth: people who attack others are often hiding great personal pain and frustration.

That fact doesn’t help the level of despondence expressed at the end of the suicide note that Ashley left before she walked into daytime traffic:

“……I’m writing all of this because I’ve need my story to be shared. I don’t want to be just another number of a tragic statistic. People need to know that I’m not just another face of someone they never met. I was alive. I have a family and friends that I love very much and I’m so sorry to them for the hurt this will cause them. I loved being around those that I love. I loved listening to music and singing. I loved going out to eat with friends and enjoying good food. I was a real person. I still want to help people and I believe I still can. Please share my final words. I believe my last words can help make the change that society needs to make so that one day there will be no others like me. Please help make this change because trans people are everywhere. You may never know who you’re hurting until it’s too late. Please help fix society.”

Fixing society is not really going to happen easily so we just need to say screw you and keep on going. After all we won't run out of the malevolent or the stupid anytime soon.

Ashley Hallstrom was 26 years old.


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