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our biological programming

The combination of gender expression, gender identity and sexual orientation is actually far more complex than a visual inspection of society would have you believe; it’s just that many people don’t present themselves as they might like to.

Societal pressure is an enormously powerful weapon that, when combined with early conditioning, form a formidable force in arresting the non-conformance of people who are inclined to be different.

If tomorrow we were to relax all norms pertaining to gender behavior in our children, we would start to see some of them naturally gravitate towards their own blend of masculine and feminine. The question we must then ask ourselves is: what is inherently wrong with that?

In the past, these children were made to conform and thus were exposed to the psychological stress that comes with such adherence. But what if we softened the gender rules instead of forcing the child to choose from a predetermined model?

Our psychologists carry their own bias with them. They themselves are a product of the same education and hence are often not helpful. I featured a recent post where I wrote that psychology is not a science. Many of us have been to counseling as children or as adults and have been exposed to the biases of educators, clergy or these same psychologists who understand little of what we are facing as transgender people.

I have often reflected on how much of gender dysphoria is biological and how much is created through repression. Might some people suffer much less by virtue of being allowed from day one to express gender as they wish instead of being exposed to indoctrination?

Today as we slowly move away from a pathological model of gender variance and towards a more tolerant one, I expect we will see happier and healthier individuals who feel free to be themselves. Instead of fashioning their behavior after an artificial model which goes against their very nature, they will be able to respect the inclinations that come with their biological programming.




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